moving on

I am so tired of dealing with people in my life. including myself. I would like to just make everything all better for everybody right now. really. I just don't know what to do sometimes. I just really don't know what to do at all. About everything. people, me, doing the right thing, figuring out what the right thing is, saying the right things, not feeling bad about everything, trying to love life as it comes, trying to be my best self, trying to give my family what they want from me, and trying to give myself what I want from me, dealing with issues and grumpyness, cleaning my room/bathroom, etc...
hmmmm, that's a long list. and now I feel like i am complaining too much. ok, not I feel, I know I am. I have a good life. I need to focus on the positive a lot more. I have so many flaws, and I think I focus a little too much on improving myself that I am annoyed with myself a lot, and don't get me wrong, that's great and I need to do that, but I also need to focus just a little bit more on the progress that I have made and the things that I have done good. not only bad. I mean, everything could be so much worse. I need to realize that everyday a little more.
I have been waiting for my life to start. I just keep telling myself that when this happens, or when I do this, then it will fun and dandy and its all gonna be great. but no. I need to stop waiting and just live. Just accept that this this is my life right now and love it. even if its not what I want at the moment. I will never be able to get back these moments of my life, so do I want to be able to look back on them and say, I really liked that time i my life, or wow, I need to learn how to be happy? I want to look back and be able to say that i did my best. maybe I wasn't perfect, but its ok, because I learned a lot and I was happy.

we are all dealing with people's mistakes everyday. that is just part of life. and everybody is making mistakes everyday. Everything we do is going to effect other people no matter what. So basically we all just need to suck it up and realize that this is ok. it is ok that we all make mistakes because that is how we all learn and we all do them. so, lets just deal with it and forgive each other and move on.

This is something I just saw on facebook that I really liked. my friend Emily had it as her status. actually there are a few quotes that I like/been thinking of right now, so here you go. :)

From Emily's status:
"To succeed you must first improve, to improve you must first practice, to practice you must first learn, and to learn you must first fail."

From Megan's status:
"Our doubts are traitors and cause us to lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt." ~William Shakespeare

From "Heal Over" by KT Tunstall:
Because pain's built to last
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
Come over here lady

Don't hold on but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to try to trust yourself
I know it's so hard, so hard

From my ring :)
Love Life. Be Brave.

From "Dare you to Move" By Switchfoot:
Dare you to Move. (which by the way has a lot of meanings for me. which I will tell you about later. but not right now)

ok, that's all for today. I am also going to link this to facebook. hopefully that will be ok. I'm kinda scared to do so because who knows who will be reading this, and these are personal thoughts. but I want people to read them, to or I wouldn't link it or write them on the Internet. its just a little scary at the same time. So here it goes.
ok, now this really all for the moment. :)

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When I was at the temple this morning, there was an autistic? or something else of the sort, kid who when he got in to do baptisms, the first thing he did was to give the baptiser guy a hug. Then when he got dressed again, he ran back into the baptistery and gave the guy who puts the names under the projector thing the biggest hug ever. it was so cute, and made my whole day.
I am also very bored. I don't know what to do for the next 29 minutes of my life. 28 minutes of my life.