sunshine :)

Today is such a happy day! the sun was shining, I didnt wear my coat, I got my favorite ice cream, and the sun was out, I love sunshine! it was kinda wierd that today was good, because I had just about the hardest and longest rehearsal ever. it was crazy. My feet still hurt like crazy and so does my brain. Also, the music is stuck in my head. Still. My pointe shoes have holes in them. Seriously, they literally have holes that go straight through. I've never had that happen, and its really hard to dance on them. I dont think I was able to go up on them the last half hour of rehearsal today. Oh joyful. I think everybody had hit that brick wall by then though, so everybody was about as dead as I was.
I also found out today that my hostess for the pageant, Tiare, also thinks they read the results backwards. Or that might've been yesterday... She also thinks that maybe it could've had something to do with the swimsuit question that was asked during my interview. I've decided that I am really disapointed that I didnt win. I really wanted to. But, its ok because like Tiare also said, it happened for a reason. Obviously Heavenly Father didnt want me to win, and whatever he says goes no matter what so.... :) Tiare also said the night of the pageant, that He didnt want me to win becuase he has something else in mind for me this year. I really really really hope that she is right and it has something to do with my dancing. I really hope it has to do with my dancing. I feel like I am burning out. For about the last year and a half. I just keep pushing and pushing, but I dont feel like i've been going anywhere. I dont feel anything when I dance right now. Well most of the time. There are moment where I do, and I think it's those moments that have kept me going the last year or so. I just cant seem to put my soul into it anymore and I dont know why and it really frustrates me. A lot. I dont think I've ever been so frustrated in my life thus far. poop. I dont know what to do. But at least today was really good and happy!
I just played the Ukulele! Sarah started to teach me last sunday, and a bunch of people were playing at school, so my friends and I started to play with them. It was so much fun! hahahahaha, I really like it, its lots of fun. Today was so great!